I'm drowning in everything I own

I don't know how I ended up here, or why I'm starting to "blog" about my life. It's really not all that interesting. I've spent this week retracing my steps and making sure that I'm ready to embark on the biggest adventure of my life (and I've been on some pretty damn big adventures before). It isn't real yet and I don't want to believe that this is it. I'm leaving the comfort of northern california on sunday and heading down to face the unknown without a hand to hold. I'm anxious. I'm nervous. I'm excited. I'm everything but ready.

I have no idea what lies in store for me other than homesickness and that awkward first couple of weeks in which I'm going to have to try and make friend (I've never been good at that game). It all seems so unreal. SoCal seems like totally different universe filled with plastic and money (neither of which I have an abundance of).

But, these are the things I am looking forward to:

• decorating my dorm with my memories
• turning 18 with something to do
• the boys (yes, I'm that shallow, but so are you)
• the nightlife
• hanging out with jason, landry and becky
• getting "surprise" visits
• being on my own (kinda)
• being able to tell my stories when I come home

some of these are almost like a blessing and a curse (i.e being on my own). I don't know how exactly I'm going to survive with out my favorites (you know who you are).

I just remembered that I have to finish this course online for school by tomorrow. so this is it for now.