smoke fills the spaces we used to dance

I'm back again
and my silence is broken
my heart has stopped racing
and my fingers aren't clawing for anything to hold onto
these walls are new
and they don't bleed with memories of times unseen
futures broken
and promises made

I'm back again
and the world seems smaller
the area between here and there
shrank down to the size of a pea
and the area between here and now
expands with each breath I take
creating an expanse that I can't weather on my own

I'm back again
one year past
and I'm not dancing on moonbeams
or wishing on stars
with the false hopes
and the battle scars
I'm just praying that I survive
another round in the ring

I'm back again
loving the same
and finding nothing here to keep me occupied
but a reminder of everything
I went through
just to make it to the end

I'm back again
and here I am
starting over
right were I left off
with a few more memories
and a few more promises
all things that will be broken again

I'm back again
but where have I been?