tirade agaisnt the earth, sea and sky

and she's come
undone
her words are as mixed as her emotions
her stomach knots and twists
and her speech slows to a slur
under-wraps
her mind wanders and loses itself
to the downward spiral
of his spiral staircase

the smiles she faked for the camera
come back to haunt her
on the faces of those she loves
those shes jealous of
the world is still spinning for them
while she can't stay anywhere but still
somewhere in between
the in between
she reached the top
only to find herself getting fucked again
in the most literal sense of the word

her eyes lock and load
on her next target
but her aim is always off
by just that much
so she ends up with the wrong one
again
lying awake
the ceiling pressing down on her
while his heavy breathing
keeps her awake
for the second night this week

the earth never moved under her feet
her bored expression
a testimony to the day she gave up
her body
shifts and turns
with the road
as it becomes another snake
leading her home
to where she'll sit again
contemplating what when wrong
along with whowhenwhereandwhy
the answers won't come in this lifetime
at least not while she's looking

they'll come
she'll be put back together
but only when she least expects it