you've lulled me to sleep with your thoughts without physically being present.

we finally decided
that with hours under our belts
we're jumping headfirst into this
hoping for the best
but still expecting the worst,
this much will never change

and I'm terrified
of what tomorrow will bring
with daylight and witnesses
and I'm terrified
of how this will end
because nothing lasts
and I have yet to describe this as
beautiful

where did you come from
with your goofy smile
and your perfect compatibility
and how did you find me
swimming in an ocean of
past lives and unforeseeable futures
only to pick me off the ground
and lead me someplace safer

you're not what I expect
when I expected to find a match
you're far from my usual
probably proving that you're
exactly what I needed to
survive this year
but I'm still uneasy
simply because

and I'm sure I don't deserve this
the nice guy
with intentions of gold
and I'm sure I'm not ready
to be treated
in any other way
than they treated me before
who are you to be this good?