hide and seek

you screamed so loud
we couldn't hear your insecurities
as you drowned them out
an incredible feet
in and of itself

I popped advil
and snuck away for well-deserved
cigarettes
in order to pretend like it wasn't real
but you just kept on going
proving me wrong with every
interrupted sentence
that will never see its end

and it began to rain
as she followed along
mimicking your every move
as if you were leading her in a dance of betrayal
I'll never see her shine again
you've dulled her out
to make room for yourself

I woke up to empty promises
and hollow hellos
waiting for the town to go under
I'd rather pretend like you never existed
than come face-to-face with the fact
that you're all too real

and how do I treat this
I haven't found a pill strong enough
to turn everything around
turn it back into how it used to be
I haven't found the right drugs
to hallucinate her back to my side
or make myself believe your intentions were ever good

I hope everything you're pretending to be
gets washed away
and you're left naked
stripped of your ego
screaming at everyone to help you clean up this mess
and put you back together
because you wouldn't be caught dead
without this seasons shade of pride