spur

life was so much simpler
when metaphores flew over my head
because they had no meaning
in present tense
I told my stories
only to jump start my creative genius

I told you the truth
because you wouldn't believe me any other way
I blame myself for my lack of tact
but you were never tip-toeing around my feelings in the first place
you should have known the day would come
when your magic would wear out
and at the sound of your voice
I'd rather turn around and walk away

and I'll put on a smile for the happiness that was never real
it was always the idea that you'd change that kept me awake
until four in the morning
teaching myself about growing up
way too fast
someday you'll realize what you've done

now I'm keeping them at arm's length
telling myself that nothings reality when you live in fiction
because she loves happy endings
and we watch her cry through the goodbyes
I wish I had as much faith as I've pretended to have
for the better part of my
better years

I've gave up on trying to find perfection
because I know there is no such thing
I'm finding my way from drink to drink
and bed to bed
without the regret I thought I'd feel
it only means nothing if I keep my heart out of the discussion
when it gets involved it all goes downhill
so I've kept it in a corner
I'm happier this way
safe from the monsters in every blind spot

I won't bend or break to your words
because you only want so much
I couldn't ask for any more than I've already gotten

here's the cause
tell me how these words are going to effect you.