I'm locking myself away
from everything that bumps in the night
crawls through my sheets
devours my thoughts
gives me this empty feeling
that has consumed me
alone seems more inviting
than putting on a facade of
nothingsthematter
when I've forgotten how to feel
anything but terrified
you took what you wanted
not caring what you left me with
and ignored my pleading
I don't want to be "some girl"
you've stolen in the night
so I'll creep out before
the sunlight hits their eyes
and make sure you know I'm gone for good
I'm never making that mistake again
with my lungs gasping for anything but smoke
I'll fill them up again and blame you for
the rest of the world
knowing trust will never be an option again
I'll pull back from anybody who tries to reach for me
because the shock hasn't worn off
the fact that you never even cared
would almost hurt, if I could feel anything
so I'll sit outside
hoping the moon landing wasn't contrived
and wondering why exactly
I ever wanted this so badly