your signiture

it's more of a conversation starter
because your moves are see through
and I've learned to spot them from a mile away
thanks to the last
and the last
and the last
more than once is a step up for me
even when this leads to another brick wall
signaling a dead end
I'll take what I can get

but this is unusual
I'm not one to let happiness get the better of me
and yet I couldn't hold back a smile
at the sight of your skin
because for once everything is going as planned
even when I know that this can only last for so long
and the countdown has already begun
then what will become of everything I'm working so hard for?
what will become of this?

I shouldn't expect so much from a stranger
even when your whispers promise to tell me all your secrets
or at least the lies you think I want hear
I'm not interested in everything
I just want you to get to the part where you tell me
that this means nothing more than nothing
so that all of my worst fears can become reality
at least you won't be lying anymore

or maybe you aren't the bad guy
and I'm crucifying you before you've had the chance
to sit in front of the judge and jury
the crown of thorns is just a hand-me-down
from the others
to whom I'm comparing you
but it's better for me
to believe you're going to be another downfall
than be completely crushed when
all you're just like all of the others

I'm done with this internal monologue
because it keeps flinging me in circles
and I know I can't take all the options
without forgetting that hope dies first
contrary to popular belief