for mama

there's a soul
she's flowing through the atmosphere
dodging in and out of holes in the ozone layer
and coming back down to earth
if only for only a minute
in order to remind me that she's still here

between times she's floating away on clouds
and dancing on the stars
shifting with the sand
as the tides carry her to exotic lands
where she blends in with the flowers
and waits for us to find her
waiting

I'm convinced this soul is singing
when it's silent
and I can hear her carrying on with the wind
her laughter
is breaking the sound barrier
and the reason I can still do the same

as I bury myself in these books
she's the sweet sounding words
that flow together so beautifully
that I can't help but smile
she's the synonyms and adjectives
I love so much

and when I find myself with nowhere to run
except back to my pillow
she's soaking up my tears
and rubbing my back

and when I begin to live in the memories
of her smile and her voice
of her dancing and her singing
her laughter and her words

her breathing
her heartbeat

when it feels like she's gone

that's when she's everywhere
that's when she's flowing, dodging, dancing, singing, laughing, floating and shifting
through me
with me

and I am never alone