so. I've been keeping this blog since about a week before school started. now here I am. 9 months later, done with my first year of college. it all seems so surreal. I don't know where to begin describing this whole experience because as much as I hated it while I was there, I sure as hell miss it now and I'm pretty sure I'd go back in a heartbeat. there really is nothing like college (Asher Roth is on to something). It sucks because there--oxy, Los Angeles--everything is within your fingertips--friends, men, entertainment, relaxation--everything... here, I still have nothing. and sure, I'm going home (fort bragg) but everybody there is a 180 from all my friends here I don't think I can handle it. I don't really know where I'm going with this, but to say that I survived the worst of it, and I still want to go back. it blows my mind that I'm not going back to oxy in a couple of weeks. like, i have to have a life outside of oxy, out side of our bubble and i don't really know how to do that. I got so comfortable there. so prepared. so (hopefully) ready for anything. and now it's like home is the danger zone. the unknown. how am I going to do it?